Sunday, 4 December 2016

I am trying to make sense of life right now.
This has probably been the most eventful year in my life so far.

Saturday, 22 October 2016

3am writings

So this semester has been a hell of a whirlwind.
Every week I am thoroughly exhausted and wish I could really sleep forever.
But then I think about the future life I have to live and it provides that little bit of sustenance.

I have always said that my life plan is but a plan; nothing is set in stone.
And it scares me.
I'm afraid of not knowing and not having complete control.
Does that make me a control freak?

Still, I am thankful I found someone who I can be brutally honest with.
And Darren reads me pretty damn well in the short span of time we have known each other.
Like I say, I am an open book.

I think I am still getting used to this new kind of love.
This love that is assuring and peaceful, calm and collected.
Nothing that uproots you. But it is strange indeed.
It is strange to me.
But eventually, I know deep down that this is the kind of love that could possibly weather the storms in this blackhole we call our world, through the beings we call 'fellow men'(whom are not even close to any sense of the word 'fellow').

We don't know, but we will find out.

Friday, 16 September 2016


i can never understand how someone can hold so much power over you.
which is why i'm so cautious of relationships and miss being single a lot.

if the person you love can't see you as imperfectly perfect then they don't deserve you and you don't deserve to be wasting your damn time gurl

Friday, 29 July 2016

Back in dis shithole

Flew back home today and this all still feels unreal. 
I was still in Brisbane 12 hours ago.
I would endure another 8 hour flight right now to be back there.

No words can describe how fucking depressed I feel about being back.

Wednesday, 22 June 2016

I'm so bored I just might need to go get that 'Knit-your-own-dog' kit.

Monday, 13 June 2016

more noods

Final images for my Lighting as Visual Language class.
Self portraits inspired by Archer Magazine.

So I completed my semester here about 2 weeks ago and I cannot believe that it has flown by just like that.
Have learnt so much in uni here because it's just so different from back home.

One and a half more months before I fly back home to complete this thing known as my degree and I'm still struggling to comprehend how I feel about this whole thing.
Actually, I just feel like crying thinking about it. I will miss the supportive tutors and the crazy positive classmates (I swear these australian peers are the nicest people in class) and all the people I have come to known/have met
These past 4 months have been incredible and crazy and the next month is just going to be chilling around in Brisbane until Jon comes to travel with me.
Occasionally, I sit down and think about how to stay longer in this country I feel so at home in but reality hits me and I know I have to go back to Singapore for at least a year more to complete my fucking degree.

The current plan is to finish that and then apply for my masters here because that's the only way I'm going to get into this country long term (because Australia does not consider me a "skilled worker" lol art school what have you done to my life). The other option is to marry an Australian guy but that's not happening anytime soon hahahahaha.
The pressure of it all is probably getting to me a little too much because it's on my mind almost 24/7.
Quarter life crisis man, quarter life crisis.
Also, people around me are getting engaged/married and it is scaring me a little lol.

Anyway, fuck this I'm going to get ready and go shopping. I need to buy some milk.