Friday, 22 September 2017

Review: FENTY BEAUTY by Rihanna

So unemployment and having too much free time has really gotten to me so I thought I'd do something a little more productive apart from lazing around all day.
About 1-2 weeks ago, I specially went down to Sephora to get my hands on the new FENTY BEAUTY collection by Rihanna.
Ok I have to admit that I was partially swayed by all the hype surrounding the collection and advertisements were all over my web browser (because the internet knows ok, it does). 
The whole marketing campaign did look very contemporary and luxe so that made my decision pretty easy as well.

So the day after getting most of the products from the collection, I did a 'test run' as I had errands to run etc. And the day after was when these photos were taken. 

Products I got/used:

1. Pro Filt'r Instant Retouch Primer
2. Pro Filt'r Soft Matte Longwear Foundation
3. Matchstix Trio in Medium (Trippin, Bamboo, Mocha)
4. Kilawatt Freestyle Hightlighter Duo (Mean Money & Hu$tla Baby)
5. Gloss Bomb Universal Lip Luminizer - not pictured
6. Precision Makeup Sponge #100 - not pictured

Ok so basically, I will show you how the foundation looks like on my skin with the primer.

So this is my bare face:

After primer + foundation:

After the rest of my makeup (sans gloss):

These are the shades of the Matchstix Trio that I got:

Swatches of the Matchstix & Highlighter Duo:

From L-R: Trippin, Mocha, Bamboo, Mean Money, Hu$tla Baby

So the Gloss Bomb is not pictured because I bought it on a different day than the rest of the products and I don't know why, but I just didn't take any photos of it.
I did try taking a full face of makeup photo with the gloss but my camera was having a hard time focusing.
I will, however, write my thoughts on each of the products.

1. Pro Filt'r Instant Retouch Primer

The primer smells amazing and has a silky texture. Also has a light pale pink tint to it and goes onto the face very smoothly. I'm not a big user of primers (I usually go without one) but I think this one is decent for what you pay. It is pretty hydrating as well. It doesn't necessarily make a huge difference in how the foundation looks eventually but I think it does smoothen out the face a good amount.

2. Pro Filt'r Soft Matte Longwear Foundation

As you can see from the photos above, the foundation pretty much is a perfect skin tone match and covers most of the redness on my face (which is alot). My pores and scars also look much smoother, maybe except for some very very deep scars but these are never ever covered by other foundations I use. The thing that I really really love about this foundation is also the fact that it feels like NOTHING on the skin (even though it is a medium coverage matte foundation, and those usually feel very heavy). It even feels lighter than my CC Cream.

It does oxidize, however, or rather, it dries down to a slightly darker shade than when it is first applied. The staff at Sephora are aware about it so they will actually help match your shade with this consideration in mind. 

My only gripe with the foundation is that it seems to rub off or smear off a little when I use the  Matchstix on top of it. I think I will use my usual liquid concealer in the future with the foundation. But other than that, the foundation pretty much looks like my own skin and wears for quite long (I wore it for about 10 hours the other day, and it still looked decent at the end of the day). 

Other than that, this is a great foundation for the price tag (note that many high end or 'branded' foundations usually cost $60-70) and I like how there is no need for a setting powder if you don't have too oily skin (my skin is ultra oily so I still do set with a little bit of my Laura Mercier translucent powder).

3. Matchstix Trio in Medium (Trippin, Bamboo, Mocha)

I actually really like the shades and tones that the Matchstix range has (they have cool, neutral and warm tones like the foundation) and the creamy formula actually goes on the skin very nice but as I have mentioned previously, it does take off some of the foundation if you blend it in too hard or smear the stick too hard. 

I find that the concealer shade works very well and is very very blendable on top of the foundation (just be careful not to blend too hard or smear the product). I have yet to try it on my bare skin for a more natural, no-foundation look but I will do that soon and I believe it will work better than on the actual foundation itself.

As for the contour shade, it is a very nice warm shade for my skin tone and it blends quite nicely as well, though this takes a little more work than the concealer shade. I think I still prefer my powder bronzers but this is not too bad as well and like the concealer, I think I will use it more when I am not using foundation.

The 'highlight' colour, Trippin, may look like a blush tone but it applies more like a highlighter, but I do think paler skin tones can utilise this as a blush. It does not apply as smoothly as the concealer and contour in this trio so this is a downside. The payoff is gorgeous, however, and looks very glowy and flush on my skin.

So overall, I wouldn't really say the Matchstix are a hit. Buy them if you want, but I didn't have any cream concealers/contours to begin with so that was a good addition to my collection.

4. Kilawatt Freestyle Hightlighter Duo (Mean Money & Hu$tla Baby)

This is probably one of my favourites from the collection. I don't think this is very visible in the photo of my face (because shallow depth of field, sorry), but I can tell you that the payoff is great and the staying power is amazing. 

The 2 shades comprise of one subtle shade and a more 'bling bling' shade (if you will lol). I like the versatility in this duo because that means I have options on a light makeup day and on a heavier makeup day. The formula is very smooth, slightly creamy (even though it is a powder highlight) and it lasts a long long time. After the 10 hours of wear that day, the highlighter was fully intact on my face. I actually started scratching my face (it was itchy, nothing to do with the products lol) and the highlighter came off on my fingers and I can tell you that there was a big ass load of glitter on my fingers hahahaha.
So yes, the highlighter held onto my face really well (except for when I decided to scratch my face).

5. Gloss Bomb Universal Lip Luminizer 

I think this has to be my favourite product in the collection. I know many of the online reviews and videos have labelled this as "an average lipgloss that you can find anywhere" but I beg to differ. 

I am not usually a lip gloss kinda girl and I LOATHE the feeling of lipgloss on my lips (I have tried many times to overcome that but to no avail until now). Every lipgloss I've tried felt like glue on my lips LOL. I also have a huge problem of finding sheer or 'natural looking' lip products because my lips are quite pigmented and the top and bottom lip are not the same shade. So having this gloss was like JACKPOT ok. 

I'm in love with the "my lips but better" kind of look so this shade was PERFECT. It really evened out the tone of my lips and the gloss just made them look great. Like my lips looked hydrated and plump and sexy lololol. The formula was not sticky at all and it provided a nice 'blanket' for my lips (hahahahaha). My lips felt like they were encased in a soft cushiony layer. Also this lipgloss smells AMAZING, like it smells edible. I HATE plasticky smelling lipgloss so again this is a plus.

So yeah if you have the same problems as me with regards to lips then PLEASE BUY THIS.

6. Precision Makeup Sponge #100

I bought the sponge because I don't actually have a makeup sponge (I usually use a brush for foundation and my finger for concealers) so I thought I'd give it a try. I have heard someone say that it feels cheap because it is not as hard as some other sponges but I LOVE that it is so soft and light and fluffy. 

I hate hard and bouncy sponges because I just feel like I am applying makeup with a fucking rock. 

It also doesn't have latex so there's no awful latex smell coming from the sponge. The sponge actually smells super nice after you wash it because of the primer and the foundation hahaha so that is a plus.

But in conclusion, the sponge is a nice, decent sponge and blends in the product very well. It also has this small dent on top to get into crevices or for nose contour.
But then again if you have a sponge that you already love, i don't think you need to spend the money on ANOTHER sponge. 

SO, that concludes my review for the FENTY Beauty products that I got. This is the first time in a long time that I've spent so much effort on a blog post ok hahahaha.
And whether or not it helps you, I'm glad I actually got my ass off the bed and did something productive lol.

Sunday, 13 August 2017

Some photos.

Some photos I took when Jimmy and I went to the hidden Marina Square maze and then to the esplanade area for abit.

Getting out to shoot has been great because I am 'forced' to shoot a little (I can get lazy sometimes) and it's also shown me a lot of things that I can do with photography outside of school now that I have officially graduated (convocation photos another day).
The past year has been so consuming and I had been so involved in the work I was making that I never had the time to shoot leisurely.

I'm making good use of August to recharge and shoot a little more personal stuff because I start interning in September.
I am very very very excited for what's to come.

Tuesday, 8 August 2017

Unworthy (just some thoughts I needed to type out)

Tonight, a friend revealed to me how he found out about his ex's cheating.
What followed was a series of "it's not worth it" and "TRIGGERED" (all for laughs though haha). What I found in the humourous (but simultaneously, serious) exchange was a weird unity that made me decide enough was enough.

My ex has been viewing my Instagram stories for 2 months now (ever since the breakup) and has been stalking my friends as well. I have seen his name pop up every single day on my list and tonight I decided enough was enough.
In the beginning, it was fine because I knew I was happy with how things were moving in my life and it was something to prove.
As time passed, seeing that name grew tiring and frustrating.
And tonight I realised I had nothing to prove to this person.
What he is, is a fragment of my past. An undeserving, unworthy fragment. A person whose name I'd rather not be associated with, let alone see pop up on my phone.
Someone who is undeserving to be a voyeur of the quaint little life I have now created for myself.
And so, I have removed him from all forms of social media for good and with a sigh of great relief.

I told Jon: "never have I ever felt this way towards someone in my life". Honestly. So thoroughly and utterly disgusted with someone.
So, I'm done with the rant haha. It was a significant moment in time for me tonight as I walked home under the full moon (i love the moon so dearly), so I thought it needed to be written down.

And to D (my friend mentioned earlier in the beginning, who also happens to share the exact same birthdate as me!!!!!!!! are we soulmates now haha), if you ever read this, know that no unworthy person deserves your fucking time or effort or energy so don't waste time thinking about them ok pls omg go make yourself happy!!

Sunday, 9 July 2017

In other news

I booked a one way flight ticket to Melbourne yesterday night because it was the last day of the Jetstar sale.
Can you believe that I will be paying $169 for a flight to Melbourne?????!?!?!?!
Well I'm ecstatic. But I haven't told my mum anything nor do I have the finances to fund an entire trip myself right now but what is life without a little leap of faith?

sooooooo all I gotta do now is pay for the ticket and then book a domestic flight to Brissy and I WILL BE BACK TO MY HOME SWEET HOME.

Also, I have not found a job. This quarter life crisis is killing me a little. But I'm taking it in stride.
With all that's happened I reckon I can be a little less hard on myself (because dumb people are not worth the energy).
I would like to extend a huge thank you to everyone who has told me that I deserve so much better and that at least now I need not deal with all that disgustingness.
Also Singapore is horribly tiny and I have found people who actually know my ex's new girlfriend LOL so thank you for reaffirming me as well love u all hahahahahah

Hopefully I am not going to bum around much longer so I can fund that trip down under and get my fucking life together. YAY ADULTHOOD.


Thursday, 6 July 2017

Last goodbye.

The first 3 photographs were taken on the same day, the day that you were at my house and had just woken up from a nap because you had a night shift the night before. You were drinking a vitagen that I had brought up for you and you were nibbling the straw (a habit I am guilty of as well).
It was then that I decided to finally take some photos of you on film (after a good few months) because I was so afraid that I would lose you and be left with film photographs that I could never get rid of except throw them away (which I wouldn't bear to do either). You never knew but it took me so much courage to snap just those few photos that day.

Yesterday night I discovered these photos of you (and me) again when I was searching through my hard drive.
I took one look at the second photo and I couldn't take it anymore. I was a sobbing mess last night. I have been doing well so far after the breakup (and finding out about the other girl) and I think I have been suppressing all the grief because I thought I was okay. But I wasn't and last night proved that to me. I was not okay and I had to let it all out.
That second photo broke me. It broke everything I was working towards up till then to move on.
That photo broke me but it is my favourite photo because it reminds me that at one point in our relationship, all that revolved around us was that intimacy we shared. I will always be grateful for that.

And I cried. Till I was tired enough to have to go to bed.

I am sad that I never got to share these photographs with you. To show you what I saw through the camera and how I saw you as a partner. I am sad that it is a moment I captured in time that I will never get back again. And I am sad that what was shown in these photographs had to end the way it did.
I am also sad that I never got to show you my two fake pet toy rats I bought in IKEA haha.

Today, I told a friend that if you came looking for me I would even consider taking you back. Because that was how much I valued our relationship. Because I believe in second chances (even though we know that we are past second chances now).
And because I sincerely believed that you were the last person whom I thought would ever do something like that to me.

I saw you for who you are, Darren. And I loved every inch of what I saw.
I may not have been the best and I have done some shit I definitely shouldn't have but I know I did everything I could at that point in time.
I keep telling people that I am more angry than sad. But am I?
Am I masking the sadness under the anger?
I am angry that even after everything, you still had to hurt me this way.
But I forgive you. I forgive you because I love you.

I just wished things ended differently. At times I would have the urge to talk to you and tell you things because that was what I had been doing the past year.
 I even wanted to work my life around yours and I would have gladly and willingly have done so.
But this is my last goodbye to you. This is for myself and myself only. Because now I only have myself to care for.
Here's to immortalising what we had; now time to put that away.

If we ever cross paths again, till then.

Friday, 30 June 2017

aiyo why ah

idk why my exes always like to cheat on me with damn subpar versions of me.
like u cannot bear to let go of the real thing then you go and downgrade FOR WHAT

at least upgrade right then i at least will be like wa not bad la good job on the upgrade BUT NO they choose some skanky girl lol like wut

legit i'm concerned yall

Sunday, 18 June 2017

Feeling disgusted that I was once with someone who could so easily betray the love and complete trust I have shown them.

I don't know how you can ever do that to someone you claim to love.