Sunday, 31 August 2014

Breaking some rocks




"Through thick and thin, yeah?"
"Mhm"

That was all I needed to hear.

Monday, 25 August 2014

Life is throwing rocks at me.




This is one of the times I have so much doubt in myself it is damaging.
I am torn between who I want to be and who I am supposed to be.
A good student, an artist, a photographer, a writer, and the list goes on.
It seems like I cannot be all these simultaneously and it is killing me.
Perhaps my mind cannot handle academic rigour as much as I thought it could.

Uni has made me question so many things that I never thought would cross my mind.
I guess this is part of growing up.
I guess I need to sort out my goals in life, I need direction, I need flow.
In the end we are all conforming to a certain standard -  to our tutor's expectations, to our peers, like how we behave and interact with each other.
We are all seeking affirmation.

We are all merely seeking approval from the world around us.

Because only with this affirmation and approval do we go forward.
When will I feel the affirmation I have for myself is enough?

Saturday, 23 August 2014

Diana F+































































120mm film shots from the Diana F+ that I tried out a few weeks ago.

Love of mine









Just came home from the airport after sending Bregy off to Hong Kong.
I came back with a heavy heart and so many thoughts on my mind.
It will only be a week but I can't help but feel empty knowing that my other half is so far away.

Nothing is ever easy, huh?

Thursday, 21 August 2014

New Baby




My new camera, a Minolta SRT201.
And my pretentious pose.

Hopefully my lens is not infected with fungus (fingers crossed), getting it checked out this weekend.
Also, developing some film this and next week so there will be a lot a lot of photo updates (yay!).

Sunday, 17 August 2014

Random update

Oh my goodness, school started this week and it has not been easy transitioning into that regime again
My body just cannot take it.

But alas here are some crappy photos to keep you entertained.




Me giving bitch face on the train



Disgustingly yummy food




My new glasses which I will get soon




My boyfriend trying to be hipster with my cardigan

Saturday, 9 August 2014

?

At the end of everyday, I ask myself: Can you let go?
And I always tell myself, yes.

And I realise I'm not as strong as you.

Friday, 8 August 2014

Taken over



Weekends are so precious when your other half is in the army.
School starts next week and I am dreading lesser free time.
Corny as it sounds, I don't want to spend a day without Bregy.
This is the first time I don't understand how I can fall in love with someone over and over again, more and more every single time.
Honestly, I have never felt so blessed or lucky to have someone in my life.

The future is always scary, I have never been more afraid.
But in knowing what makes us afraid, we find strength.
And I know for certain I want my best friend here by my side for the rest of the ride.

Tuesday, 5 August 2014

If you didn't know...



I got 2 new piercings last week.
The second one on my earlobe and another on my helix.
I really wish the healing didn't have to take so long........

Sunday, 3 August 2014

Pause













Thank God for friends.
Anyway school is starting again soon and I am not looking forward to being busy again.
Can I just stop time for a little while and float in this empty space that gives me so much comfort.

Friday, 1 August 2014

Reasons



Reasons why I love you.
Just slightly over a month and it has been the best month yet.
All I hope is that our love for each other will continue to grow and blossom like the flowers in this jar, and to know no boundaries.