Monday, 29 September 2014

Doggies Part II
























Photographs of Rocky that I took at Bregy's house and in the park.
I'm so upset that my negatives have a scratch, and they won't print well in the darkroom.
But there's nothing Photoshop can't fix these days.
So digital will have to do, but right now all I'm posting are raw images directly from the negative.
I feel it's more authentic.

Tuesday, 23 September 2014

Photographing Bregy









3 of the photos from the whole 2 rolls I used photographing Bregy.
These are the only ones I've edited so far because we were planning a little project.
But more to come.

Film photography has been so fascinating ever since I got started.
It will probably be something I am looking forward to doing long term.
Also, I love shooting people, so hopefully these two can materialise and come into one melting pot altogether.
I have learnt not to take things too seriously now and not to overthink plans I have for myself/my work.

Anyway, recess week is coming up next week, I can't wait.

Sunday, 21 September 2014



Life is full of surprises.
More of the good ones, none of the bad, please?
Have a good week ahead, y'all.

Wednesday, 17 September 2014

Darkness

Sometimes I wish I wasn't so flawed.
I wish I had a beautiful soul.
I wish I could be easier on myself.
Because at the end of the day, everyone stops caring about you.

And the only person there for you is yourself.

Friday, 12 September 2014

Doggies



If you don't already know, Rocky is Bregy's dog.
He is bloody adorable and such a weirdo.
But I love him.

We brought Rocky for a long walk/hike at the park last week and it was one of the best times I've had. I also brought along my Minolta so hopefully I can get some of the images soon.
And it really reinforced that notion I have about dogs being the best things ever.
I'm so sure I'll get a dog next time. So sure.
It's just something about them.
They don't give you money, they don't buy you things, they don't help you with homework.
But they sit outside the toilet waiting for you to finish peeing.
At least that's what Rocky does to me.



Wednesday, 10 September 2014

Excess

I like to overthink things. I think too much and about too many things at the same time.
And it really drags me down and pulls me into a black hole because I become so preoccupied with the issues that I am thinking about that it takes over me.

Don't think, just do.
Don't think.
Don't think.

I very often compare, myself with others, and people with each other.
Don't compare.
Don't compare.
Don't compare.
I need to learn to stand alone and stand my ground.

I also often feel like I am the only person in the world.
I always feel alone.
I always feel like my battles are only mine to fight.
I always feel like I have no friends.

Don't think, really, don't think.
And just move on with life as I please.

Tuesday, 9 September 2014

New hair don't care



Finally cut my hair after more than a year.
It has been such an eventful year for my hair, and my life in general.
I'm just glad all is well and I am blessed sufficiently.
Bregy has been such a tremendous pillar of support even though he cannot always physically be here for me.
But I know he will always have my back.
This relationship has taught me so much more than I expected and you can tell I've definitely changed a whole lot in the past year.

I refuse to delete my older posts on my previous relationship because I believe it serves as a reminder - a reminder of mistakes, of undoings.
And a reminder that I am worth more than I think I am.
It keeps me grounded in some way, and it reminds me how lucky I am to have what I have now.
Bregy has opened my eyes to a whole new world out there, he freed me.
To put it in a really funny way, he set my spirit free and made it whole again.
He taught me how to live in the moment with his zeal for life.

I am amazed everyday by you, I really am.
And I realised I was trapped in a dark place that really destroyed me the past 2 years.
Such a long way I have come.

Monday, 1 September 2014

When can I tell the world that I finally got it all right?